faith

people have often asked me ''how can you have faith in God when he clearly doesn't exist?'' and i say ''well its really hard work, very, but that is why it is called FAITH." which is believing in something you cant prove. faith isn't a gift. its a bloody life sentence.i work at it and fail often. in fact mostly. its not something you are born with or not. well maybe the great saints but not the normal (ish) singing writing reflective woman. i get so pissed off with that question. and then when people ''prove'' that God doesn't exist or do any good (haha) because it's not about proof. i cant prove many things that exist. many people far cleverer than i can't prove it. only God can prove he exists. and so the circle goes on.