note to self. if somethings not good enough. if something is not fulfilling you. if you feel uncomfortable in a medium. go your own way. even if bankrupt status beckons. follow heart. follow heart. follow heart.even if you end up far away from where you thought you would go. go with what god gives you and follow the path you can swim down. don't knock on doors that you don't like the colour of. even if they let you in.